"I can't do this. I can't
Muttering softly, Dr. Ian
Frechette was pacing nervously on a darkened sidewalk, standing several houses
down from Trevor and Claire's home. It was the middle of the night, shadows
and silence all around the calm suburban street as he paced there alone,
waiting, indecisive. He was waiting for Rick to meet him there, so they could
both walk over to Trevor's house in a unified front, knowing full well what
they planned to do.
Inside his chest, Frechette's
feelings were churning, wave after wave of wildly conflicting emotions tumbling
over him, each change and fluctuation leaving him frightened and uncertain.
he continued to pace back and forth nervously, as if unsure where to go,
what to do. Some small analytical part of him realized the sensation was
simply a physical manifestation of the indecision he struggled with inside,
but he ignored that. Still pacing, his body and his mind moved back and forth
over all the possible consequences of what was about to happen.
For a moment, his body
paused, going tight. He looked over at the house in the distance. Even from
here he could see the curtain drawn back form the large living room window.
And glowing through the glass, a red light shining like a beacon. And just
barely perceptible on the glass, the light vaguely illuminated the outline
of a heart, hastily scotch taped to the window, tiny in the distance.
Frechette watched the house,
thinking. It was already late into the night. That light must have been glowing
for hours now, calling for him, calling for Rick. Yet so far, it had gone
unanswered. Trevor must be wondering where they were by now. He was calling
him. The god of love was calling him. Calling for his help.
What felt like a cold blanket
of smothering doubt suddenly engulfed him, and his stomach twisted as he
started pacing even faster than before. His mind continued to evaluate what
he believed, who he believed in, and what he and Rick were about to
do. So why was he even considering this?
Coming to a stop on the
sidewalk in the middle of the night and all alone, Frechette finally shook
"No... I can't... I can't
He turned his back on the
red window light glowing in the distance, and started to walk away. But then
a soft voice from the darkness stopped him. "Ian... "
Pausing, slowly Frechette
turned, and suddenly his heart lifted when he realized Faith was there. She
looked at him sadly, however, her features dim in the low light.
"Rick's right.." she told
him sadly. "About Trevor."
Frechette took a step off
the sidewalk and closer to her, moving onto the grass, eager to be near her
again. But he stopped when he saw her take a small, subtle, step back. He
decided instead to keep his distance, feeling uncertain and afraid to push
things. He didn't want to lose her being there, uncertain of how close she
would be willing to accept.
"Faith, where have you been?
It's been over a week and I haven't seen you or heard you at all."
The beautiful blond woman
still looked at him sadly, but she didn't answer his question. Instead Faith
repeated what she had said.
"Rick is right. About Trevor.
He is afraid. Scared. Not wanting to leave you--" Awkward, she stumbled over
her words for a moment, before trying to get them back. "I mean... Claire.
Not wanting to leave Claire."
Frechette blinked at her
slip, looking at her. He continued, addressing her statement.
"You have no real way of
knowing, Faith. Not with any certainty. How can someone know what goes on
in a god's mind? How can any of us really know?"
"I know, Ian." She looked
down. "I know it's true because it's the same thing that happened to me.
When I was alive... I was doing the exact same thing. I had spent years searching
for something, until I finally found him. Found Cupid. Found the god of love
in the flesh. There he was. Real. Alive. Slowly collecting beads... slowly
leaving me. Each bead one step closer. To tearing him away when I had barely
found him. His every success left me devastated. I started trying to ruin
his matches, to keep him with me."
Thinking about it, Frechette
watched her. "If he's afraid he'll have to leave, then... why doesn't he
Faith's voice sounded tragic.
"He can't... Deep down. It's who he is. He still wants people to find love,
to be together in love. So now he's living halfway, a shadow between doing
what it takes to stay with the person he loves, and being what he can't stop
being. Something else I... understand as well. That's why he's protecting
himself, with you and Rick as his proxies. Trevor's in love. And for the
first time his biggest fear now... is what he has to lose."
Frechette shook his head.
"Trevor's a god. Gods have no fear."
"Oh, no." Sadly, Faith looked
up at him. "Even gods get scared."
Frechette was quiet for
a few moments, thinking.
Faith continued. "Trevor
needs this, Ian. To live again."
With a frown, Frechette
looked over to Trevor's house where the red light was still glowing faintly
through the window, like a beacon in the night. And as he did, he thought
about the god of love encased in the house's walls, too afraid to step outside.
It all seemed so clear for a moment.
He took a deep breath, accepting
it. Faith's voice continued behind him.
"We all have fears, Ian."
He turned to look at her.
"What's my fear?"
Her lips broke into a quiet
smile, as if she was amused.
"How the world swill see
you," she answered simply.
Out of nowhere, footsteps
could be heard approaching from the sidewalk behind them, and Rick called
Frechette turned towards
the man approaching him, waiting with Faith standing beside him.
"Ummm..." As he moved closer
and onto the frozen grass, Rick paused, scanning the area but seeing nothing
around them. He gave Frechette a skeptical look. "Who were you talking to?"
Sparing a quick glance for
Faith standing next to him, Frechette answered, his voice unwavering.
Rick pointedly looked around,
seeing no one there. Dubious, he turned back to Frechette. "Right..."
Amused, Frechette lowered
Standing there and feeling
awkward for a moment, Rick reached into his coat pocket and removed a small
"For the chill in the night
air," he explained, removing the cap and taking a drink, as if trying to
gather his courage. Putting it away again he scoffed.
"Can't believe we're out
here in the middle of the night doing this. All to straighten out some deluded
'god of love'." Rick's final words dripped with sarcasm.
Calmly, Frechette looked
at him without anger, his voice full of conviction.
"He is the god of love."
Skeptical, Rick nodded.
Hi gaze wandered all around Frechette, still seeing nothing, no one with
him. He looked back into Frechette's eyes, speaking good naturedly.
"So, you were talking with
a friend, huh? You're a little strange, aren't you?"
Unexpectedly, Faith laughed.
The sound was bright and
alive in Frechette's ears, bathing him in a warmth and elation as the woman
stood beside him. He looked at her with a smile before facing Rick again.
"You have no idea..."
Slowly following Frechette's
grin with one of his own, Rick nodded. Without another word the two men started
walking towards Trevor's house, dark before them in the distance, the red
light glowing faintly through the front window. Rick looked over at Frechette
as they walked. "Come on, proxy man. Time to tell a god where to shove it."
"Trevor, could you please
Already darting frantically
back and forth the second the two of them had entered, Trevor didn't acknowledge
Rick's words, instead full of pent up energy as he did several things at
once. He was opening and flattening crumpled notes from his greek cigar box,
cross referencing with phone books or stacks of old newspapers, and always
moving quickly past the two men in either direction, in full Cupid Central
mode. Like a ball of captured intensity, his words came at them at a mile
"Hey, no time for me to
be sitting, minions. Not when I made coffee. I want coffee. Made it. Drank
the coffee. Lots of coffee. Lots and lots of coffee. Where have you guys
been? We've already lost most of the night! Never mind that. Never mind that
now. Time to get cracking like Athena's bedpost when Zeus is away. We gotta
move, gotta shake, gotta get back on mission. Stay on target, stay on target,
loosen up! Oh the number of times I heard that screamed in the distance
from out of Athena's bedchambers. Gotta go, can't stop now. Not when I--"
Trevor paused, looking
over at the two of them meaningfully, completely pleased with himself.
"I have... IDEAS."
As Trevor started moving
back and forth again, Frechette calmly walked over to him. He reached out
and carefully touched Trevor on the shoulder, stopping him in his tracks.
"Trevor, please... Sit
The older psychiatrist
looked into Trevor's eyes, an expression of complete seriousness on his face.
Behind them, Rick was already
pulling out a chair from the dining room table, turning it away to face an
empty part of the room.
Trevor blinked, everything
going still. He looked at the two of them, their gazes somber. The room seemed
to pause, quite in anticipation. Trevor finally spoke, his voice uncertain.
"Ok... should I be getting
a blindfold and a last cigarette here?"
Rick and Frechette said
Slowly Trevor moved over
to the chair and reluctantly lowered himself into it. The two other men walked
over to stand shoulder to shoulder before him, looking down.
Trevor gazed up at them. "Ok, guys... What's up?"
Frechette shared a quick
glance with Rick before beginning.
"Master Cupid... this is
Trevor scoffed without
thinking, sure it was a joke. But when he looked back up at the two of them,
he paused, seeing their faces. "Intervention? What's that supposed to mean?"
Rick spoke up as Frechette
turned away. "It means we're not your 'love minions' anymore. We quit."
"Look, guys--" Trevor tried
to get up out of the chair. That was a mistake. The palm of Rick's hand suddenly
shoved him back down into the chair, hard. Rick was obviously in his full
cop mode now, and as Trevor looked up at him, he suddenly seemed to notice
how large the looming man was.
"What this means is that
we're done, Trevor." He leaned in closer, looking into Trevor's eyes with
a hard stare. "We're done jumping through hoops. Running around. Taking your
advice, or following your orders. Or 'subbing in for your own dreams."
Growing angry, Trevor finally
did stand up, and Rick didn't have time to stop him. He stood face to face
with the larger man, unafraid. "What's THAT supposed to mean?"
"You know what it means,
Trevor." Frechette said, nodding calmly before looking over at him. "You've
been using us as proxies. For something your afraid of doing yourself."
"That's ridiculous," Trevor
tried to laugh it off as he turned away, but he didn't sound very convincing.
"What could I possibly be afraid of?"
"Of losing Claire..."
Rick said it simply, and
it stopped Trevor in his tracks.
His voice softer now, Rick
looked at Trevor with a seriousness in his eyes. ""This is something new
for you, 'Cupid'. Loving someone. Losing someone. Someone important. Before
it was simple. You were an 'immortal'. Moving through life. No attachments.
No commitments to anyone. But now... you're in love. With your wife, with
your child. You're connected now. To something beautiful, and fragile, and
finite. And... mortal. This is what it is. Being mortal. And it scares you
to death. I don't know if you're Cupid or not. But you're so afraid of being
forced back to Olympus, it's become your own personal form of 'mortality'.
So you have me and Frechette doing all your dirty work. Because deep down,
you hope that way it doesn't count."
The anger seemed to leave
Trevor, but he still couldn't meet the men's gazes, looking down. "It's not
Rick pressed on. "Isn't
it? You here, living in secret, hardly leaving this house. Who in their right
mind would accept something like that? Or even you?" Trevor looked over at
the implied comment as Frechette smiled in the background, but Rick continued.
"As long as Ian and I are your proxies, you'll always be living in the shadows."
A fiery glint returned
to Trevor's eye, his words edged. "Hey, look at your own life, man. Look
at how you're living. I'm not the one in the shadows."
Rick nodded, not offended.
When he spoke again, there was a sadness to his words. "Yes you are. We both
are... You ever ask yourself why you've been sneaking out? It's because despite
the risks, you can't stop being who you are. Trevor, you don't want this.
You want to live again."
Trevor looked over at Frechette.
"You agree with this?"
Frechette nodded. "Yes
I do, Trevor."
Not accepting it, Trevor
shook his head, looking at them. "You guys can't do this. Look, this isn't
about me. It's about you. Both of you. Frechette, you need something, someone,
in your life that makes you happy. Makes you come alive!"
"There is someone special
in my life, Trevor."
Trevor looked at him skeptically.
Interrupting, Trevor turned
his attention back to Rick. "And you. You still need to win your girl back.
Or at least be able to face her again. Who cares about restraining orders!
That was her, that night in the hospital, wasn't it?"
Not meeting his gaze, Rick
looked down. "No."
Trevor smiled triumphantly.
"It was her. I knew it! You need to face her man. Get this behind you. You're
the ones needing help, not me. Look, we can--"
"Trevor, I lied!"
Everyone in the room looked
at Rick for a long moment, before he continued.
"Maybe you're right, Trevor.
Maybe she's one of the many things I need to get past. But I lied to you.
She's not even in Chicago. Not anymore. Hasn't been for months. That's not
why I stayed. I stayed in Chicago because of you. I wanted to know what I
could have done different, try to get a feel for you, how you lived, here.
I guess some part of me is still trying to save you. To find out what I did
wrong. To figure out one part of my life, even though the whole world thinks
you're dead. And then I found you here, real and alive, but just as good
"But--" Trevor began.
"Np! No, more excuses.
No more diversions. YOu're hiding from yourself, Trevor! From who you really
are inside. So it's time you looked at some hard cold facts. Yes. Someday,
you WILL lose Claire. Lose every single person you've met, every single person
you love. Maybe even watch them die. But you can't just live waiting for
everything else to die. Be Cupid, Trevor! The world needs a Cupid, but you
need it more. You've said it yourself. Grab the sky! Make yourself the tallest
thing for miles!"
Behind them, Frechette
was thinking as he listened to Rick, applying Rick's words to himself and
lost in his own introspection.
Rick continued. "What kind
of person hides who they really are?"
Pausing with disbelief,
Trevor spread his arms as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.
"All of them!"
"And you of all people
accept that? If you're going to be Cupid then be Cupid! Who cares what the
world thinks, what the world says. You didn't used to! You used to be Cupid,
THE God of Love, look out, I'm charging through, torpedoes be damned! All
these things, these feeling inside of you, it's time to show them again,
let them out. Cupid should make his matches himself. Isn't that the way it's
supposed to be?"
Trevor seemed even more
uncomfortable, stepping back. ""Guys, you're making something big out of
His gaze unfocused on the
floor, Frechette still seemed lost in his own thoughts, thinking about what
Rick was saying. Until suddenly his gaze changed, lifting slightly in understanding.
When he finally spoke, his words were quiet, clear and simple.
"My god, Rick's right."
The two men turned from
their argument and spoke simultaneously. "What?"
"I just never saw it before.
What Rick was saying. I have to face certain things. Like..." Frechette paused,
and for a moment it seemed as if some part of him was surrendering, like
a wall was disappearing. He lifted his gaze, a sense of wonder in his eyes
at the growing revelation inside. "... like the fact that I don't need someone
I love in my life because I already have someone I love in my life. I really
do, Trevor. "
The tiniest of smiles appeared
on Frechette's face, his eyes twinkling happily as he looked at Trevor.
Skeptical, Trevor replied.
"You have someone. Really? YOU?"
Looking down, Frechette
nodded. "I never imagined that I would reveal this to anyone, but... There's
this woman. A woman I've been--" Frechette paused with a small chuckle. "A
woman I've been 'seeing'."
He looked back up at Trevor
again, and both of the other men in the room could see that Frechette's heart
What Frechette saw... was
that Faith was there, watching him with a smile.
Slowly she walked past,
moving behind Trevor, a warmth in her eyes. Her gaze remained locked on Frechette's
as his eyes followed her. No one else in the room seemed to notice her. The
two of them shared a quiet moment, Frechette's body tingling, before finally
"Trevor... I'm in love
Trevor blinked in surprise,
not sure he had heard right. "What?"
Rick blinked too. "Umm...
what he said."
"Yes." Frechette kept his
eyes on her, adoration on his face. She was more beautiful than he had ever
The other two men watched
Frechette's reaction, strangely, confused at the look on his face as he stared
Trevor stepped forward.
"Ian, that's... crazy. She died years ago. I'm the one who shot her for me's
sake! Faith's dead."
"Only a little..." Frechette
nodded. "I know all that, Trevor. All that happened. But even though you
killed her, the rest of her is still here. I've been seeing here for years.
And now I can't deny the truth anymore. Hiding what I feel. How much of my
life have I been hiding away, Trevor? Living in secret? Rick's right. Not
just for you, but for me as well. And I should listen to him. I'm in love
His voice full of sympathy,
Trevor stepped closer, putting a hand on Frechette's shoulder as he looked
into his eyes. "She's gone, Ian."
Like it was the most obvious
thing in the world, Frechette spoke simply. "No she isn't. She's right here.
Over there by the door." He nodded towards Faith.
Faith smiled back.
As one, Rick and Trevor
slowly turned their heads towards the door. There was nothing there. Frechette
was staring adoringly at empty space.
Oblivious to their reactions,
Frechette continued, not looking away fro her. "She's beautiful, Trevor.
And I'm in love with her."
Trevor carefully removed
his hand from Frechette's shoulder. And without any abrupt motions, he raised
his hands, palms forward, and slowly started backing away. "Ohhh...kayy..."
Frechette was still looking
at Faith. "And she loves me too. In ways I never knew could happen for me."
Trevor kept backing further
away, until he realized he was getting near the door. He jerked away, looking
at the empty air as if afraid he would bump something. his gaze darted back
and forth between that empty space and Frechette. He chose his words carefully.
"So let me get this straight.
You're dating a dead person... who only you can see."
"Yes, Trevor. Because of
you/ I finally found her. Found myself."
Trevor tried to console
him. "I understand that want. I understand that desire, that need. Hey, believe
me I do. But she's only in your head, man. There's no bead here."
"No's she's not. And yes,
there is." Happier than anyone had ever seen him, Frechette walked over and
grabbed Trevor by the shoulders, hugging him gratefully for a long moment
before turning away.
Trevor's voice was louder
as Frechette broke the hug, trying a different tact. "Frechette--... Ian!
You're a respected psychiatrist. Leader of the community. Who's currently
dating a figment of your imagination! If you think they call me crazy, well..."
Trevor scoffed, wiggling
his head and lifting his hands at the implication, at a loss for words.
Frechette, however, seemed
at peace. "Doesn't matter what they call me. Just matters that I'm in love.
Trevor... you have your bead."
"No I don't. What are you doing?" Trevor asked as suddenly Frechette moved
past him and into the darkened living room where the beads were hastily strung
up in the glow of the red lamp shining out through the window. Trevor followed
nervously, right behind. "Um, Ian, really, what are you doing?"
"Updating your score."
Searching, he paused, looking for the end of the line before reaching up.
Trevor's voice was louder,
"You don't get a bead for
imaginary girlfriends! Hey, you can't just-- Don't touch the beads! Never
touch the beads! What are you-- Don't do that!"
Frechette easily slid the
last bead in line over to the true love section, before turning triumphantly
back to Trevor. Trevor watched the line of beads in shock, expecting the
bead to slide back, knowing it would slide back. But it didn't. His jaw slowly
lowered slightly, speechless. Until his confusion was interrupted by Frechette,
when he grabbed Trevor by the shoulders again and gave him a quick kiss on
the lips, leaving an even more stupefied expression on Trevor's face.
"Thank you, Cupid."
Letting out a happy, satisfied
exhalation, Frechette walked over to the front door, a bounce in his step
as Trevor stared at him. Pausing with his hand on the knob, he looked back
at the two men proudly, his back straight, his chest full. and like a triumphant
hero after a great victory, he finally spoke to them. "'It is a far better
resting place I go to, than I have ever known'."
With a wave and a flourish,
he opened the door and stepped out into the night.
Once it closed behind him,
it left the other two men in silence within the room.
Coming back from what had
just happened, Trevor wiped his mouth. "Why do crazy people always want to
With a pouty, off putt
expression, he moved back over to Rick. "He touched the beads... You see
Rick's turned his eyes
down. His voice was soft as he spoke. "He's more courageous than either of
us. More alive. Because he decided to live, to show who he is. While you
and I... where the dead ones hiding in here."
Trevor glanced at him for
a moment. "You're a belly full of laughs."
"Maybe Frechette's the
"Him?!" Trevor shook his
head. "The man's crazy. He's a total nut! You heard what he said."
"Maybe he is crazy. But
at least he isn't afraid to show it. Can you say the same?"
Trevor sighed. "Not this
"Yes this again. Be Cupid,
Trevor. Instead of just dancing in the shadows. I'll be honest. I don't know
if I believe you or not. The world is a harsh, cruel place. Sometimes it's
hard to believe in good things. But one thing I do know. That a harsh, cruel
world... needs a Cupid."
Seeing Trevor's reluctance,
Rick started quoting. "'It won't be easy. You'll have to do some stupid
things. Reckless things. Things that scare you to death. Can you do that?'
Trevor paused, surprised
at hearing his own words spoken back to him. And now, confronted with the
very questions he had asked of Rick, he didn't know how to answer.
"Well... Well, I..."
Trevor said nothing for
several moments. As Rick watched, something inside him... finally gave up.
"Ok..." Rick's energy seemed
to leave him, and he shook his head. "I get it. I don't mean you. I don't
think anyone well ever get you. But I think I finally understand something
about myself. I finally.... see."
Trevor blinked. "What do
Rick paused, his body straining
towards the door, uncertain if he should tell him. "I watched you fall off
that cliff, Trevor. I watched you die. And now years later, visiting a grave
that you allow to keep existing, you're still dead. And some part of me is
still trying to save you. Guess in my head you'll always be up on that cliff."
Rick turned and moved past
"Wait... " Fear crossed
Trevor's eyes as he walked with him. "What are you doing?"
"Because I understand now."
Rick walked back into the
well lit dining room, gathering his coat and putting it on. Trevor followed
behind, about to lose a second follower in as many minutes.
"Rick, wait! We can talk
about this. Wait. Tell me. What do you understand!"
Rick was already headed
to the front door with Trevor at his heels when Trevor stopped him, hand
on his shoulder.
"Come on, man," Trevor
said. "Tell me what you understand. I deserve that much."
Slowly, Rick let go of
the door handle and sighed, looking at nothing. After a long moment, he removed
a flask from his coat pocket that he hadn't touched in a week. Opening the
top, he placed it to his lips, leaned it back and took a drink. Turning,
he looked right at Trevor as they stood by the front door, answering his
"You can't save everyone."
With that, Rick opened
the front door and stepped outside, leaving in a far more somber fashion
than Frechette had. He said nothing else, not looking back. Slowly the door
closed, leaving Trevor silent and motionless in the dark.
With a sigh, Trevor turned
away from the door where the last of his two disciples had left. He shifted
his gaze, and he finally saw a little girl, watching through the railing
of the stairs leading up to the second floor.
Bliss was there, obviously
having been drawn out of her bedroom upstairs by all of the voices and activity.
The tiny girl had watched everything, sitting there quietly behind the railing
of the stairs.
Trevor frowned, feeling
guilty that all the commotion had wakened her. The thought passed through
his mind that she was the child that never spoke unnecessarily aroused by
the older children that did. Slowly the little girl came down the steps and
walked over to her despondent looking father. A tiny hand reached out, gently
taking his. Trevor fell to one knee, looking at his daughter. She looked
at Trevor with sympathy, as if he had just lost all his play friends. After
a moment she hugged him, filling Trevor with warmth. Pulling back, she looked
into her father's eyes, and her lips finally moved.
"It's time to talk now,
A look of wonder passed
across Trevor's face, hearing his daughter's voice for the first time. Trevor
looked at Bliss for a long moment. The little girl smiled quietly, and Trevor
understood, seeing it all so clearly.
Reaching forward, he hugged
his tiny daughter again, kissing the top of her head as out of nowhere, music
began to play. And as it played... another sound could be heard; the sound
of a phone ringing. Until finally, a familiar voice answered.
"Welcome to Love Notes.
You're on the air with Claire Allen. How may I help you?"
The night skies started
to brighten over the frozen stretch of the city of Chicago, slowly filling
with light over the darkened horizon.
In the chilled pre morning
air of the cemetery, a foot stepped forward. The icy grass crunched underneath
and slid past as the music played. Barely seen, the shadows of tombstones
looming hazily beyond.
Claire was in her studio,
waiting for the caller on the line to respond as she adjusted the headphones
over her ears to a more comfortable position, readjusting the microphone
hanging before her as well. After a moment, she blinked at the silence on
the line. The caller had still not answered, so she tried again.
"Caller, you're on the
air. This is Love Notes. Go ahead..."
The foot at the cemetery
stepped forward again, still crunching on the grass as the musical guitar
chords continued to play. The unseen person above continued to walk forward,
certain, moving through the grave markers. The other foot came into view
as the frozen grass slid by.
Back in the studio, Claire
frowned, lowering her head as she listened, waiting for the caller to respond.
Then the person on the line finally spoke.
"I have a problem. I
haven't been honest," the caller said. "Honest with myself."
Frechette's apartment was
quiet, covered in a silent, delicate shadow. Until keys clinked in
the door and it swung open. The happy face of the older bearded psychiatrist
appeared as he stepped in, stopping on the doorstep of his home. He saw Faith
standing there inside, smiling at him. Tenderly, he closed the door and walked
over to her as Trevor's voice was heard over the scene.
"I haven't been honest
with who I am. What I am."
Claire blinked as she sat
before her microphone, pausing unexpectedly when she recognized the voice.
Try to keep her composure, she gathered her thoughts before answering. "That's...
interesting phrasing, caller. Umm... who do you feel you need to be? What's
missing from your life?"
I close both locks below the window
Rick was at home in his
dilapidated, low budget apartment, the trashed surroundings still in their
usual state of disarray. Squinting over at the young morning sun's edge shining
in through the window, he reached over to it and clicked the window lock
shut, before lowering the blinds and dropping himself into darkness. He took
a drink from the alcohol flask he carried and turned away.
I close both blinds and
In his house, Frechette's reached forward and opened up the window blinds,
raising them up to reveal a bright view of the city and the sun rising beyond.
Trevor's voice was heard speaking to Claire again.
"What am I missing?
Me... I'm missing me from my life, Claire."
Sometimes delusions aren't so simple
In her studio, Claire blinked. Her eyes darted nervously over to her producer
who was watching her from behind the control booth glass, Wondering if she
had recognized Trevor's voice too. With a small swallow, Claire continued.
"Tr-...Caller. Are you
sure you should be calling here?"
Trevor's voice answered.
" I have to. I have to talk to you first. Just the two of us now, Sparky.
Sometimes good bye's the
The footsteps of the person
moving through the graveyard were faster now, more certain.
Inside Rick's apartment,
the room grew darker as one by one, Rick turned off all the lights.
In Frechette's home, his
hand gently reached forward, a lit match held in his fingers as one by one,
he lit candle after candle, filling the room with a dancing glow.
And the sun will set for you.
Back at his and Claire's
home, Trevor stood motionless in the darkened living room, the phone nestled
to his ear. His eyes lowered as he waited, but he heard nothing. His voice
"Claire? Are you there?"
And the sun will set for you.
Claire paused, swallowing
again in her studio. But as she listened to the sound of his voice, hearing
it soft in her ears, it seemed the rest of the world dropped away. And for
a moment, it really felt like it was just the two of them. Her voice grew
tender too, a voice meant just for him, a lover's voice full of concern,
and asking honestly.
"Tell me. What are you
And the shadow of the day,
will embrace the world in gray
Looking out his living
room window, Trevor watched as the sky got dimly brighter beyond.
"I have to get my life
back, Claire. I can't--... I can't lie to myself anymore."
Her voice came through
the phone and it nearly broke his heart. "But, it's more than that. Isn't
And the sun will set for
Trevor looked down, his eyes glittering slightly with moisture. "I'm scared,
Claire. Scared to death of getting my 100. Scared of losing you. But I can't.
Can't liv my life from the shadows anymore. Hiding from all I'm afraid to
Claire's eyes were sympathetic
as she heard Trevor's voice.
"No one should have to
live that way," she said.
He spoke again through
her headphones. " I see people around me, Claire. Taking chances...
In the gentle, fluttering
light of the candles spread around the room like a sea of stars, Frechette
slowly walked past, looking out the uncovered window as the pre morning sky
over Chicago brightened and turned a 1000 different colors one after another.
Outline against its light he turned and extended his hand. Faith's hand touched
his as she came into view., squeezing it tight. The two of them looked adoringly
into the other's eyes as Trevor's voice was heard again.
Diving to the bottom of the pool without caring about the water. Making themselves
the tallest thing for miles. That used to be me."
footstep moved across the frozen grass.
Cards and flowers on your
Standing alone in the darkness
of his apartment, Rick tossed aside the beer bottle he had just emptied and
reached for another one from the open fridge before him. Even the light inside
was busted out. As he pulled his hand , his eyes paused and looked
at the loaded gun on the kitchen counter next to the sink, where he had left
it. He thought about it for a long moment, thinking
about why he kept it there.
he mumbled softly, his hand hovering above it, before pulling away.
Your friends all plead for
you to stay...
Rick plopped down on his
worn recliner, the new bottle in hand as he picked
up the remote and turned on the tv, going through his usual morning routine.
A news report came on, bathing him in a dim, pale light as he watched and
took another drink. "And that's today's weather. Coming up, we go live
at daybreak to take a look at one of Chicago's most bizarre folk legends--
Sometimes beginnings aren't
Faith and Frechette blended
smoothly into each other's arms, her head resting contentedly on his shoulder
at last. And then, with no further word, they began to dance together, swaying
gently back and forth, dim in the light of the candles and the brightening
Sometimes good bye's the
Earlier that night, Taggerty's
was busy, filled with light and activity. the sky outside still dark, hours
before sunrise. People laughed, people danced. As Trevor's voice was heard
speaking to Claire, and the front door opened.
"I love you, Claire.
But I have to be who I am. No matter the cost. No matter what happens because
At the bar, Taggerty's
manager, Champ Terrace, looked over, his eyes locking onto Trevor, standing
inside by the entrance, and Champ's eyes widened.
Slowly the crowd inside
began to recognize the new arrival, come in and circling around with smiles
and surprised exclamations, tapping him on the back as Trevor became the
center of attention as Champ watched from the bar. Champ was motionless,
in absolute shock, watching the happy people around Trevor, seeing the new
light in Trevor's eyes, but not knowing what to do. Then quietly resigned,
his mouth closed, accepting it. Trevor's gaze turned across the room and
looked at him. The two men shared a long, silent glance. Champ gave him a
small, resolute nod, before Trevor turned back to his adoring throng again.
And the sun will set for
Claire lowered her eyes
in the studio. A weight seemed to suddenly lift off her shoulders. When she
spoke, her words were kind and full of sympathy.
"It's okay. I know you're
right. I... I should have seen it too. A long time ago." She paused, her
emotions more certain now. "You do what you need to do. I love you. I allays
Claire waited and took
a breath. And then she... jumped.
"I'm always with you, Trevor."
His voice came over the
headphones. "I know. Thank you Claire. It'll be all right. Trust me.
Claire laughed. "The day
I start doing that, I'll be as crazy as you."
She could hear his smile,
even over the phone. "Maybe. You may be right. I may be crazy. 'But it
just might be a lunatic that you're looking for'."
The sun will set for you...
There was a frantic knocking on the front door as Trevor stood in his living
room. With the phone against his ear, he moved over to answer it, opening
it to see a tired looking Jaclyn standing there bleary eyed after he had
asked for her help. He guided her into the house, the phone still against
"Look, I gotta go. I love
In her radio studio, Claire
smiled at his words. Her eyes were full of tenderness as she spoke softly.
"I love you too, Trevor.
Talk to you later... Cupid."
Slowly, she reached over
and pushed the button to close the call, feeling lighter, and more free than
she had in a long time. Then with a happy sigh she looked up, realizing that
her producer was motionless, watching her in an absolute stunned silence,
her jaw gapping and her eyes wide at what she had just heard.
And the shadow of the day,
will embrace the world in gray.
Smiling and not worried, Claire looked eagerly back at her phone line board,
picking a waiting line and pressing to connect to it before speaking into
the microphone before. "Ok. Moving on to the next caller. Welcome to LOVE
NOTES. I'm Claire Allen."
And the sun will set for
A guitar solo began to
play, lively and energetic with anticipation., The music continued as another
footstep moved through the frozen grass, more tombstones sliding past. Almost
A pretty, blond haired
reporter was shivering in the cold air. The lower lip on her smooth, youthful
face quivered, and her brow was wrinkled with frustration as she stomped
her feet to stay warm in the cold pre morning air, bundled tightly penetrating
February chill. The sky above her was getting brighter, and she blew into
her hands to keep them warm as she watched the cameramen set up the lights
for her remote newscast.
The pretty blond reporter
shook her head. "God... I can't believe I drew this puff piece assignment
when I should be on a warm beach in the Pocanos right now. I must have really
pissed off Tom to deserve something like this on Valentine's Day."
A production tech was listening
in on some overlarge headphones nearby before speaking out. "Ok. They're
starting the lead out. Positions everyone."
Cameras swiveled. Lights
switched on, illuminating the pretty blonde's face in the dim morning light
as the warming sky colored above her. The shivers and complaints dropped
instantly to be replace with a bright yet vacant smile. She stayed on her
mark and waited for her cue as the tech started counting down.
"And we're on in five...
The woman waiting, before
finally there was a flick of hand, and she spoke in a clean, clear voice.
"Thanks Linda. Welcome
everyone on this cold Valentine's day morning to the site of one of the city's
unique oddities. Chicago's very own-- ow--... Oh... my god."
"My point exactly." a voice
The blond woman was dumbstruck,
looking past the camera at something beyond its view.
The tech's voice could
be heard from off to the side.
"Wait.. Isn't that--."
The footsteps continued
forward, now bathed in the light from the morning sky above, before finally
stopping on the cold grass to stand in one spot, a grave marker directly
The tech's voice called
out. "Turn the camera! Get a light on him!"
In his apartment Rick was
watching the same newscast, watching as the tv image hastily swiveled to
one side and centered on a figure, the lights finally illuminating him.
He suddenly jerked up in his chair, not believing what he was seeing on the
screen. The image shook and bounced as the camera readjusted, trying to get
closer. He heard the blond reporter's voice calling out.
"Get on him! Get on
Slowly the scene stabilized
on Rick's television. On the edge the blond reporter stepped into view, moving
closer to the figure on the screen, the camera bouncing before it zoomed
in on the man's face. Trevor was there, standing proudly before the lights
and the camera, his feet planted on his own grave, the grave the camera crew
had come to film, the grave of Cupid, The God of Love.
The blond reporter stepped
closer, approaching slowly. She seemed nervous as she extended her microphone.
"Are... Are you...
Rick waited, the silence
of the moment stretching.
Outside as he stood atop
his grave, Trevor took a deep breath of the crisp air. He extended his hands
out to either side, his grin warm and genuine as he basked under the attention
of the cameras on him.
"Daddy's home, kids." He
said proudly, before he stepped over to the pretty reporter. "Hi. I'm Trevor
Hale. Cupid, the god of love. By the way,
I know the perfect guy for you," he made a phone motion with one hand over
his ear, winking at her. "Call me after this. We'll talk."
In his apartment, Rick
He smiled as on the screen
Trevor laughed, looking happily into the camera, his smile bright and shining
with the light of a thousand suns.
In the sky above, the light
grew further, until finally the glittering edge of the sun began to climb
over the edge of the distant horizon, spilling a clear glow onto the grave
site as the reporter stepped forward, her fear gone but now asking questions
at a mile a minute.
Rick leaned back in his
chair, amazed. "Guess some people can be saved after all."
The glare of the new morning
flowed into Frechette's home, but he hardly noticed. Still dancing slowly
with Faith, he looked into his 'imaginary' girlfriend's eyes as the sun's
rays flowed warmly past the two of them, bathing them in colored light.
Trevor stood in the middle
of the camera crew, the remote lights shining brightly on him as the sun
rose further into the sky behind him. More still cameras from every side
began flashing brightly like pulsing stars, as the sunlight flowed across
the tombstones and brought everything out of the shadows.
And the shadow of the day,
will embrace the world in gray.
Back at Claire and Trevor's
home, Jaclyn was holding Bliss in her lap, pointing her towards the television
to see her father as Bliss laughed and clapped happily.
Watching the same broadcast
in his apartment, Rick paused, before looking down at the almost empty bottle
in his hand. He thought about what Trevor was doing at that very moment,
and he went silent for several seconds. "I need another beer..."
Slowly, he stood up and
headed towards the sink, the bottle in his hand. But then he paused, looking
down at the gun lying on the counter, feeling the weight of it. His hand
moved, still holding the beer, but hovering over the gun... before he tilted
what was left of the bottle into the sink. He opened the fridge door beside
him, grabbing the rest of the new beer bottles he had, opening them all and
one by one pouring them into the sink.
At his grave site, Trevor
said nothing, not answering the questions being thrown at him. Instead he
grinned at the cameras, soaking it all in, before he shook his shoulders
at them and laughed.
Beyond them, the rising
sun seemed to flare brightly, filling everything with white...
... which faded to show
Frechette's home as the sunrise pored in, and two figures dancing in the rays
of that same light, eyes only for each other. As the view seemed to slide
past the contented and in love couple, it shifted to the wall behind them
to see not one, but two distinct shadows visible there, whole and very real.
A man and a woman, dancing, swaying happily, like nothing else in the universe
And the sun will set for
And as the couple danced, the music ended, and everything faded to
Author's note: Thanks for reading! :) This could be considered and ending
to the present cycle of stories, or maybe even a beginning for other stories.
But in my head, this story continues in the far future in Cupid in Space.
It will be a two story sequence that will finally wrap all this up for me.
Thanks again. It's been long but fun. (TWSS) :)